He was at the park today with his sitter, and he was super excited to see an ambulance there as the paramedics enjoyed their lunch break. His excitement was noticeable enough that they kindly offered to let Teddy take a look inside. I always love when people go out of their way to brighten other peoples' days, doing little things that make all the difference in the moment.
Teddy was excited about the opportunity to hop inside ... until he looked around and freaked out. He began vocalizing, backed out immediately, hopped into his chair, buckled himself in and scooted away backward.
Teddy's taken two ambulance rides in his life. He was sedated and intubated for the first in 2017, as it was a transport from Oshkosh to Milwaukee. The second was in 2019 from a Disney resort to downtown Orlando. He became alert during that ride, after his rescue medication kicked in, when he realized he didn't want to be there. Dave was in the back with him, helping restrain him with the paramedics and trying to calm him. Me, I was in the front seat, staring at a lot of traffic in downtown Orlando and listening to the driver agitated with others on the road who wouldn't give us the space we needed. In fact, we missed the hospital exist because some dimwit wouldn't move over for us, so we couldn't get into the lane to exit.
Needless to say it was traumatic for all of us. I've had moments that dragged me back to the past, like my first time in the ER with Teddy after that trip. But for the most part I'm able to leave the past in the past. Apparently, though, Teddy still has those memories in his little mind. What was supposed to be a fun little adventure to check out an ambulance instead was a trip down memory lane to a time that traumatized him as well.
It made me want to hug him extra tight and whisk those memories away. However, since Teddy lives only in the moment, he was already well past that. I snuggled him anyways and chalked it up as a little insight into his mystery of a mind.
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